Struggling Without Facebook

I’ve had a Facebook for about 5 years now, and go on it consistently throughout the course of the day. While I rarely make posts of my own, I tend to use it to see how other people I know are doing, and what they’re up to. There’s been a variety of times that I was tempted to delete my Facebook to keep a small shadow of mystery, but each time I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Having to stop using facebook for over a week forclass, really opened my eyes to just how dependent I am on a website that I have a love/hate relationship with.

I deactivated my Facebook around 6pm on a Thursday night right after my professor assigned this project. Later that night, I went out and had a few drinks with friends. When I got home, I logged into Facebook as I normally would. I didn’t realize I was doing anything wrong until saw a banner at the top of my newsfeed welcoming me back. I quickly deactivated it again, but what is even more scary is how much of a habit it has become to go right on Facebook when I get home (not to mention I’m using it on my iPhone while I’m out as well).

That next day I went to listen to music on Spotify, and it asked me to log in. It just so happens, that like many other applications, I am logged into Spotify through Facebook. Doing this actually reactivated my Facebook account once more, and this made me take a step back. Never before did I realize how engrained Facebook is into my lifestyle and habits. Even when you want to disregard Facebook, it’s as if its ghost is still able to haunt you through connections with other applications.fbookno

It’s only been 4 days so far without it, and I feel like something’s missing. Not only am I dealing with the surprisingly scary yearning to just log on and see if anyone has said anything to me, but it is also an alarming reality that I have created a serious digression in my routine. These days have seemed very long (and sadly, a bit more lonesome) without Facebook to numb my mind. I think that in my case, it is even more difficult because I don’t watch television in my downtime– I go on Facebook.

Now that the little free time I do have no longer consists of Facebook, I realize I have much more time on my hands. This couldn’t be a better time to deactivate it because the end of the semester is by far the most difficult and time taxing. Therefore, I can put more energy into my school work instead of wasting it scrolling though a sea of status updates.

Needless to say, I am thankful to have other applications such as Twitter, Instagram and Snapchat to turn to while I’m away. This way I don’t feel entirely out of the loop. Still, I feel like something’s missing, and that is what alarms me. I’m more dependent on Facebook than I ever wanted to be, or ever thought I could be.